Wow...

Where has the summer gone? I look back at my posts and they are few and far between. I am not sure what my problem has been. I really can't find or say a logical reason for my lack of updating. It's not that things haven't been happening or pictures haven't been taken, it's just me. So, readers, bare with me as I try and catch you up.

In this post I am just going to update everyone on the pregnancy.

The pregnancy is going well. I actually can't believe I am 21 weeks along. Over half way done. It seems the time has flied yet in the same breath, not moving fast enough. I am blessed to get pregnant easily and I know my body is doing something wonderful. On the other hand I am not the woman who loves being pregnant. I worry about the baby. I worry about weight gain. I worry about my looks. I worry about my changing role as a mother. I worry about the change to our family, to our girls. Now don't read that and think "Oh my, what a basket case. Geez Relax." I don't spend my days being stressed or in a constant state of panic. I don't let those things become all consuming but they are things I think about.

I have been feeling movement for sometime now and it just starting to become predictable. I love feeling this baby and the feeling that I am starting to know the patterns. It seems this time around I have felt movement much earlier and the kicks have gotten stronger earlier. Natasha felt movement the other day at just over 20 weeks. Adam did not feel Natasha move until 25 weeks. I love watching the girls and their seperate excitment about our new family addition. Natasha understands a lot more and can't wait to be a little mommy. Ashley wants to lay "with" baby and kiss my belly. They both refer to the baby as mine. I told them the other day that even though the baby is growing inside of me the baby is the family. The baby is OURS. They smiled at the thought of the baby being theirs.

As much as people believe I am a disorganized person, I really think differently. Yes my house isn't in showhome condition, nor is my yard BUT to be cleanliness does not equal organization. Anyway I have the baby room set up as well as most of my newborn necessities (receiving blankets, sleepers, undershirts, etc) washed and put away. I have the crib set up. I have all fabrics washed for items such as the car seat, swing, etc. I have wiped everything down. I looked at sleepers that Natasha and Ashley both wore. I forget how small they are. The sleepers are tiny and I remember my girls still swimming within them. It didn't last long but it was there if I didn't blink.

I had an ultrasound at 18weeks. Adam and I were torn about whether or not to find out. One day Adam really wanted to and I did not. The next day, we flipped positions on the topic. The day of the ultrasound we still had not decided. I asked the tech if she would look for the sex, right it on a card, and seal it within an evelope so Adam and I could open it together. She told me only if she was really, REALLY sure. Adam actually called during the exam and the tech said she could tell us while he was on the phone. We declined since neither of us was sure as to what we wanted to do. So the tech did as I asked. She stated she would be really surprised if the baby turned out as the other sex. Anyway as I was driving home I talked to Adam and told him now that the info was in my hands...I just wanted to tear it open. He said do it. So over the phone, on the highway, we learned we were having a......BOY!!!! We were both SHOCKED!!! It still feels foreign to say that I am having a boy. With two girls and 5 years of pink it will bring a whole new dynamic to our family. I have put my pink things away. I have bought some blue things and boy clothes.

We are looking forward to this new change to our family.