Behind AGAIN!!!

Well my favorite blogger hasn't posted in nearly a week so I don't feel so bad.

We've had a nothing week really. The usual swimming, dancing and coaching. Adam is settling into his job in Edmonton. Lots of driving but worth it when he walks in the door....home. We may look into buying a small car as the gas used by is truck is a lot nevermind the mileage he is racking up. Who knows...

We have been having great weather and spending a lot of time outside. Yesterday we gathered some wood from around the property and I cut it into pieces for firewood. We have SO MUCH random wood everywhere and some buildings that should be demolished this spring. Last year we enjoyed the move and our new place. We made changes to the inside of the house and now it is time to tackle the outside. Ashley is at a tough age as the snow suit is still hard for her to maneuver in. She is happiest sitting in the snow with things around her to play with. Natasha loves being outside and doesn't like coming in. She travels around on adventures and finds treasure...I love her imagination. I CAN'T WAIT FOR SPRING.

We planted some items inside this week. I am determined to have a green thumb much to the encouragement of my dear husband. I planted some herbs, tomato plants, and some annuals. I am hoping for success. Most of the flowers/plants around the house are perinneals which makes it easy for me. Last year I gutted a bed by our front door. It was really overgrown and blocked the look of the front entrance. I want people to use the front entrance as the back entrance requires them to walk through my laundry room (usually messy). Anyway the plan is to have a flower garden with low plants, lots of colour, and a small patio set in order to make it more welcoming.

I am always afraid to reveal to much on my blog knowing a lot of family reads it but it is MY blog. I am lonely! I have a great family, immediate and extended, but no friends. I don't think I am socially inept but I find it hard when everyone seems to have lifelong friends. I didn't have many/any friends in school because my circle of friends was in the swimming pool. I have kept in touch with a handful of them but the contact seems few and far between. Sometimes I think I was popular in the pool because of my talent not my personality and that crushes me. My husband is great and personable. He seems to make friends wherever he goes. I feel bad for him because of my lack of friends I try and hang on to him a little to much. I just would like to have someone for me. To call up for a simple cup of coffee. These feelings have nothing to do with my friendships with family nor do my feelings diminish those special relationships. These feelings also have nothing to do with our move. My loneliness was around before our move and has nothing to do with our new rural location.This is also something I don't really want to talk about because in my mind I am talking about it now...on my blog. Here's hoping some friendships develop when Natasha starts school.

Anyway on to my weekly shout outs:

Uncle Daryl - I don't think he tunes into my blog but I think about him every time I am getting the girls ready to go outside and I will tell you why; when I was little we (my sister and I) would spend hours outside with him. My biggest pet peeve was my mitts/gloves always coming out of the sleeve of my coat. Well my uncle being the genius (and I use the word lightly) grabbed some electrical tape and wrapped it around my wrists. Now we could play outside without mitts coming loose or snow making its way up our sleeves. Anyway I have since passed this genius use of tape onto my daughters. If I try and send them out without it they both shout "We need some tape."

My parents - We had several rocky years when our relationship was mandatory rather than enjoyed. I am happy to say that our relationship has developed into something beautiful and more cherished. They are always willing to do anything for me and my family without expecting anything in return. I gained an enormous amount of instant respect for them when I became a parent.